here I am

I haven't written here in a while and now I start again.
I married, wild huh, not many people would have seen that coming but at the same time, the people that say that I think also know that it was. I am a lover, there isn't many times people could say otherwise, it has been a character trait about me all my life. But with that said, I was also the questing wolf, always looking for that one life long mate, someone to fill the que, be that one. I found her and she truly is amazing, no question.
But this post isn't about her, sure I have all sorts of mushy to say about her, but thats not why you want to read this now is it. I shouldn't say that, that mught just be exactly what your looking for.
I like writting I just never know what to write about. I always feel little overwhelmed when I sign on here cause I like knowing that people are reading my post but I don't think they are, so I don't want to write, but of course it's just self defeating. On the otherside, I would love to write what people want to hear about and have fun posting things things I know about and having people interested in what I'm saying. wow what an ego maniac. ok I'm done, I've totally talked myself out of writing anything here and just made my name sake seem that much more perfect.
But that is just where my mind is right now, everywhere and no where. Can't focus for a damn.